colourful world through my grey cells..

CONFESSIONS OF A TEEN!!!

Well!!! Being a teen, I can proudly say that I have a total MESS made of my life..(Proudly b’cuz this is how a teen can know that all is going normal in his life!!)..fight with mom, grounded at home..No pocket money..no cellphones!!This is quiet a routine I have these days! But then at the end I have a satisfaction that whatever I loose or give up on my will…I will always have one thing in my hand for sure..And those are my FRNZZ!!(Hey, don’t u think that this is just another write-up explaining the morals and pillars of good friendship..Instead this is about realizing the need for frnz!! It’s now that I know that with all wrong I do…I need my frnzz not to drag me away from problems (which is what they are always supposed to do) but most of the time to be a part of my mess..Holding my hand…squeezed up side-by-side..pinching and whispering “guys! We are screwd..but thank god we are in this together!!”

Everything and anything becomes a memory if with frnzz….but wait a while!!this hasn’t exactly been the way how I always interpreted things..!!I remember like until last month or so..I just thought ..that frnzz are like the ‘SPARE-WHEEL’ that you take out at times of trouble..(This is because of my mis-interpretation of a line that has always been taught to us..From huggies to halters…BETA! A FRND IN NEED IS A FRND INDEED..

)..It has always been about ME..ME..and ME…!!(I know I totally sound like a nutcase!! How can sum body think like that!!)…but that’s not how things are with me now!! This whole grand transaction from ME…to..WE..Has just turned me upside down..(just like M…to..W!!)it is like one long chapter finished and now I could move on to a new one..

after that ‘never-to – forget’ day when I broke my leg..and all my frnzz came over to spend the whole day with me..taking care of the minutest of the things-from resting my leg in their hands so that it does not hurt..to pickng up spoon for me..or filling a glass of water and even screaming if I don’t drink it..(I wanted to say that guys!!im not thirsty..my tank is full!! But couldn’t)..and then those teasing and pulling – my- leg sessions which I used to hate..and that stupid spin – the- bottle game!!(I always thought that it is a sick game..cmmon how can somebody be so honest in front of everyone just because that dumb DHAKKAN stopped and pointed at you..and how are you supposed to know that the other one is being honest??) but that day it was what I wanted to do for the next ten hours..knowing the deepest secrets and for the first time..i said all that I wanted to and that too TRUTH!!that day..keeping the pain and plaster out of tracks..gave me the most precious thing of my life……………..my friends!!and a big realization that I need my frnz..for the first time ever…I understood what sakshi meant by saying “being emotionally married” in her blog “being friends”..

now I know that I need my friends not just to share deep secrets but to be able to speak anything and everything whenever you want to..not just to hangout and pass my time..but to make every moment I spend with them a memorable one..not just to share dvd’s , vcd’s or music albums but to know what he/she likes or dislikes..and finally I need my frnz not just to share lunch box at skul or a drink at mcd’s but to share the most precious thing I have..MYSELF..

my frnzz (or any frnd for that matter..) are not a spare wheel to take out in trouble but is a “STEERING WHEEL” to guide me through all the ways (right or wrong) that I want to walk on!!...thanks guys!!For being there!!